Saturday, October 28, 2006 @ 3:38 PM
It took me quite some time to decide whether to post this but i guess there's no wrong to express my views in my own blog rite? hmm, here goes..
Looking back for the past few months i've been missing-in-action, not turning up for gatherings and simply lead a loner life everyday..after school its always heading home.
and soon i realised i'm drifting away from my friends..
i cant blame anyone if i'm not invited to places anymore..i understand that its tiring to ask a person out and got turn down the offer many times.
Recalling some gatherings with my friends, i remembered i tried very hard to relate to their conversations. In the end...i just cant do it..simply because i have no idea what they are talking about..so i dumped myself at a corner and remain silent..even though i have problems to share, i choose to keep my mouth shut..i know that after i voice it out, the problem will exist..so i might as well dun spoil anyone's good mood at the moment.
soon, i started to turn down such gatherings.. clubbing wasn't something i like. Everyone seems so fake at nightclubs..i admit i wasn't even myself when i am in the dancefloor. i hate myself when i club, i knew its not me..i knew this is not the kind of life i want..
i want FRIENDS..real friends..not just tom, dick or harry who only ask you out to party and have fun..thus, i decided to stop going such places. Counting back, its been nearly 8 months so far..the last time i went was March.
Seeing some close friends being addicted to clubbing simply hurts, some changes in their characters..well, there's nothing i can say..no one likes to listen to remarks rite? ppl often like to hear compliments only.
still, I yearn for a simple coffee gathering with my friends..how nice if i can turn back time to return back to where everything started....
