The Challenge: 42.195km
Wednesday, August 30, 2006 @ 4:10 PM

I just signed up for the Standard Chartered Full Marathon.
its not 6km..
its not 10km..
its not 21km..

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its a terrifying distance of 42.195km.
I duno if i am up for this challenge, all i know its i have to be physically and mentally prepared for it.

Completing 21km for the past 3 consecutive years, i wanted to do achieve much more.
So this year, i plucked up my courage and signed up for this Decemeber event.

At first, my dad kinda object to it..i noe he doesn't want to see me suffer and crawl back home after the race.
But knowing that i want this badly after begging him again the following day, he gave in and passed me his credit card to sign up.

Frankly speaking, i dun have much confident for it. Most probably halfway through the 30+km, my legs will give in.
But as long as i can run-jog-walk the 42.195km, i am satisfied.

Like what it says, " You finished 1409th, We see a winner."

Before this huge event, i have signed up for the women10k which will be held on October. Kinda looking forward to it but i noe it will be as fun as AHM.

Now, i've found my sport.
There is so much more in life for us to discover, our strength and our weakness.

So why waste your YOUTH away?
Discover yourself now!
Army Half Marathon 06'
Monday, August 28, 2006 @ 3:52 AM

I just finished the Army Half Marathon.
Yup, the event which i love most and always looking forward to. The reason to keep me running and go for my trainings.

I did it, i ran the 21km once again. This time with a timing of 2hrs 9mins, an improvement of 14mins from last year's timing and 50mins ahead for the first yr i started.

The run was memoriable even though i'm running alone..apparently no friends are interested in the 21km.

Anyway, all d participants have to go thru a new route which consists of Orchard, Clemenceau Road, Havelock Road, Outram etc. However, due to these city areas, there are lots of junctions in the route and the traffic police have to stop the runners once in a while to let the vehicles pass. Lots of runners are quite fed up and were urging to go, shouting things like, "time is running out!" or "oi! go leh..!" to the traffic police.

This time i've got a better starting position than last year's. No pushing or physical contact with any runners..and tts gd =) more spaces to run in between. Also, i happened to see Calvin at the starting point.

Right now, i am still hesitating of joining the full marathon this coming december..thats 42km, twice the nightmare..not the fun! =x But no matter what, i'm pleased with today's performance..

Next year's AHM shall be below 2hrs~ =)
the incident which cost my slp
Friday, August 25, 2006 @ 3:22 PM

i have learnt my lesson, i wun dare to throw important things aside and end up forgetting all about it.
And because of this incident, i was worried throughout the whole night till i didn't catch any sleep before my last exam paper which starts at 9am this morning.

What exactly happened? Well, everything goes like this:
bbdc has sent me a letter 2months ago, informing me to renew my membership for Class 3c by 24 August. Thinking that i would have lots of time to renew it, i threw the letter aside..oops..hiden somewhere in the pile of notes.

Then, on the 25 August 01:23, when i was finding my notes, i found this letter and was SHOCKED to realised that the membership has expired 1hr+ ago!

i start to panick and began thinking about the following:
* if it expired, would i have to re-enroll to start the course all over again?
* wouldn't it be a waste to start everything when i only have 3 lessons and 1 tp left?
* if i were to start all over again, i would have to use my savings and will end up bankrupt!
and if i went bankrupt, i will have to work during the 2nd semester of yr3..how am i suppose to cope with everything?
(and lots more.....)

i quickly sent sms-es to some of my friends and asked for help..
01:44am - called Raymond to help me check my account coz i couldn't use my com
02:00am - Kenny replied my sms and i voiced out my problem on the phone
03:27am - Bobbi (same as above)
04:17am - Jiahao (same as above)
05:15am - Junjie (same as above)

yea, this is crazy..somehow i need someone to talk to. I need people to tell me that everything will be fine, i need someone to console me so that i will not think too much.

I didn't sleep the whole night, not because i was burning midnight oil..i couldn't even calm myself down to sleep, let alone study..and i began to walk to and fro my house, thinking what might happen when i head down to bbdc later..

Since i was awake..i got myself ready and head down to bbdc at 7am..i need to get this thing done before i can concentrate on my exam, if not i will be thinking about this in the middle of my paper.

when i reached bukit gombak mrt station, i was much more awake then and asked myself why am i making this such a big deal?
hmm.. Maybe in the middle of the night, i really cant control my emotions and began to think too much. Yea, night time is the most dangerous zone..if u dun sleep, u'll end up thinking nonsense.

To my relief, the problem was easily solved. I still can renew my membership and continue my lessons and tp.
oops. looks like i have troubled my friends...like what they've said: things will turn out fine.
haha..alright,
thanks guys! i'm so touched that in the middle of the night, u ppl are there to listen to my nonsense..

hmm, and for my last paper..brain didn't function well and had some difficulties recalling some of the formulas, luckily everything still went well. but i wun be missing my slp before any paper in the future..coz its really difficult to do calculates while trying to stay awake. =x

anyway, EXAMS ARE OVER!
ahm's coming=)
daily bites
Sunday, August 20, 2006 @ 4:04 PM

an hour ago, i nearly had a break down that i want to tear up all my past year papers, throw them out of the window and just...erm, jump?.

ok i'm crazy. its just an urge.
=x

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after my exams, gotta catch up with some of my secondary friends..i am looking forward to meeting Irene for coffee.. Few weeks ago, i saw her mum at clementi and we chatted quite abit. I was kinda shock to know from her mum that Irene still mention about me. On my way home that day, i realisd that i miss this friend of mine very much. I wanted to msg her immediately but due to my can-be-thrown-away-long-ago phone, her number was lost..*sad*

Then on my birthday, i recieved a sms from her. No words can describe how touched i was, i was like: "is this real?" and did not stop smiling for the next 2 minutes. We chatted quite a bit and both of us promised to meet up for coffee after my exams.

Its not that kind of...
"meet up for coffee one day k?"
her: "ok sure.."
(then no details after that..you know that 'one day' nv come)

i just knew that we will meet up since we haven seen each other for quite some time.
Gonna catch up with LingXiang and Eunice too. I cant wait to hear the stories about LX's uni-life..its like, time flies. Feel funny to know that a friend of same age has entered University, it make me realised that i am not young anymore.

And of coz, meet up JJ n Hy for tcc, hopefully they will still remember. And my nephew (sorrie to owe u this for the past 6months).
Meet up John and Michelle too..am quite guilty to push away the plans so many times due to some last min changes.

and..my cousin if she is free =)
oh well, i guess before my holiday ends, i will get caffeine overdose first. But still quite looking forward to this holiday, at least there are plans to meet up a few friends. at least things are moving towards the right direction now..
Tuesday, August 15, 2006 @ 2:12 PM

next week i will be having my semester exam, this exam will decide my own future..if i do well and meet my expectations, i will stand a higher chance of entering a local University..but i cant seem to find movitation of sit down n mug.

no matter what, i will finish my elective revision by tonight (even though the paper is on next wed)..and for 1st n last paper, i shall pray hard that i can finish everything by this week.
gd-bye sweet 18...
Sunday, August 13, 2006 @ 10:02 AM

Yesterday i had the most tiring birthday ever..

i started off my day with a jog. it's nice to see residents walking their dogs in the morning, parents bringing their kids there for cycling and a few old folks doing workouts..the day started off well..

Early afternoon, i went back to sch to meet some of my friends. had a small celebration @ fc3..dun ask me why we had it in school on a Saturday coz i duno either..
later..
rushed to east coast to meet my cousins..i had fun chatting n cycling with them. Esp one of my cousins, Ying Hui..i realised both of us shared common interest. i shall ask her out for coffee someday.

after the cousins gathering..i went back to find my colleagues..yup, they are having a chalet @ east coast too. its nice to see them again but i didn't stay long there..=x

at nite..i met with with Junjie (JJ), Hsien Yang (Hy ) and their classmates at esplanade to catch the last night of fireworks..here are some pictures of it..


















Nice? haha..the fireworks were better than the previous night's. We caught a clear view of them even though the whole place was PACKED! i didn't know singaporeans are crazy about fireworks till now..


















after the fireworks, we chilled at starbucks before both of them walked me home. i enjoyed the simple chat, my java chip frapp and the piggyback!! ..wahaha! FUN! Thanks guys for the wonderful nite..i'm very touched indeed.
last day of being 18
Friday, August 11, 2006 @ 11:45 PM

just had a sucky dinner @ esplanade with my family, grandma, cousin n her friend.. Well, it wasn't because of the food...food was excellent but ordered abit too much, now i'm still bloated..bbuuurrrrppp~~!!...
but some things happened and i wasn't really in good mood throughout the whole dinner.

after dinner, we stayed back to watch the fireworks..it was beeaaauuttiifuuullllllllll! however, the first few was blocked by a stupid tree..argh, so we have to rush towards the other end to catch a clearer view of them.

Anyway, its time to make my birthday wish soon...this year, my wish will be different. i hope i can be more optimistic and stop being paranoid. Else, i will led to depression sooner or later..
And this year, i wasn't looking forward to my birthday at all..or rather, i juz wish to be left alone..

*tears*
training progress
Sunday, August 06, 2006 @ 8:16 PM

i shall blog about my running progress for this entry. Those ppl out there pls bear with me for a while coz i will blog about it frequently.

this whole week i've been quite please with myself..but there's still much improvement to be made. Compare to those professional runners, my training is juz peanuts. But well, like what one of my frens said, different people have different abilities..the most important thing is what u achieved during the process.

* so here's my new personal record:
i ran a total of 52km this week! muahahahah!!

quite happy though..maybe i should try a new training program next week. Divide the total distance by 2, and i shall run 2 half-marathons. Hopefully i got the motivation to do it.
Ahm is drawing nearer and nearer, i think its about 21 days away..
hope nothing goes wrong on this important day. =)
lonely...so lonely...
Saturday, August 05, 2006 @ 11:48 PM


Sandi thom
Song:Lonely Girl
sometimes i see her down by the river
the water dances on her skin
she can captivate to hit the ice
but she never lets you in
in the dark she lingers
like a tear without a soul

and i what a lonely girl
trying to find her way
in this mixed up messed up world
and i see so many faces just like her
so many broken hearts in the world
and i what a lonely what a lonely girl

he said lately she's been watching the weather
the weather doesn't know what to do
'cause sometimes when its cold outside
that's when she's feeling blue
but i see through her sadness deep into her soul
all she's wants to have is someone she can love to make whole


and i what a lonely girltrying to find her way
in this mixed up messed up world
and i see so many faces just like her
so many broken hearts in the world
and i what a lonely what a lonely girl

isn't it regrettable'oh isn't it regrettable
she finds her love and then she lets it go
and i see so many faces just like her
so many broken hearts in the world
and i what a lonely what a lonely day