Friday, April 27, 2007 @ 7:29 PM
That day, bro drove me to Serangoon Broadway to collect my robe for SP graduation, we came across many family photos framed up on the wall..
I asked my bro whether he would want to take a family photo at the studio some day,
he replied yes, saying that it would be great to take one after both of us graduated in University, wearing our Uni robes and took with mum and dad.
I had the same thinking too..Bro's degree is left with 3 more yrs and mine is also 3 years as well (coz of the direct entry), therefore we will be graduating at the same year.
However, i have this fear in me, some thoughts that i will drop out of Uni..Engineering Degree is not an easy course afterall, its definitely not like poly...
**In poly, you can play all day and not revise your work after school..yet you still can score fairly well overall if mug a week before exams..
**In Uni, the students mug themselves crazily day and night..some cant handle the stress and drop out.
I duno why i am stressing myself now...i haven't even start Uni and i have this crazy thought already.
If i drop out, i will waste my time and my parents' money..i will disappoint those with high hopes in me..
Friends will eventually look down on me, even though they dun say it but they will have this thought somehow..(**i dun mean base on eduation status, i meant giving up halfway..)And this simple dream of both bro and me wearing Uni robes for the family photo will not come true.
Some people might think, " so what if you are a Uni grad? there are many Uni grads nowadays and they have a hard time finding jobs as well.."
True in a way, but afterall eduation is very important..
I remembered my lecturer and I were having a drink one day and he told me, get a Degree no matter what..
If your boss would want to promote someone..seeing that both people has the same potential but one of them is a degree grad, he would promote the degree grad instead...
yea, i guessed that stupid piece of paper does count somehow..
I remembered when i was in pri 3, my family went to Thailand for a vacation. One of the places we went was this magnificent buddhist temple. At a point in front of this GIGANTIC buddha statue, people can collect a bowl of coins and drop them in this row of golden plates one by one. If the coins u received is equivalent to the number of plates, you'll be granted a wish, and i got mine in the end..( pls dun laugh at me saying that i'm superstitious because i believe most of you made a wish before cutting ur birthday cakes hor!! lol.. )
Mum asked me what did i prayed for and i told her i wanted to go to a University. I could see my parents were delighted that i have such a thought..i didn't make this wish just to please them but it has been something i wanted since young..
Now that i think back, i should have wished that i can successfully graduate from University instead..LOL
I can't stop myself for being so pessimistic..maybe because i don't want to be this 'big talk but no outcome' person for i've seen many, and i'm one myself in the past actually..haha!
Anyway, i'll try my best since it will be my last chance...
